In
an age of texts and IMs, it’s not so hard to imagine having a conversation with
someone sight unseen; we do it every day. Type out a message and hit send, and
in a few seconds you have an answer to your question or a comment on your last
statement. Speaking with someone not present—even half a world away—has come to
feel “ordinary!”
It
is this idea—that I could have a conversation with another person simply based
on the words on a page—that came to me as I considered the idea of audience in
diary writing. If diaries are written to a disembodied someone (as Margo Culley theorized), whether
Friend, lover, mother, God, future
self—whatever role the audience assumes for the writer…
then
why could I not do the same? Why could I not enter a conversation with someone,
not just out of sight, but out of time? I just needed to find the right
someone…
When
I read the first entry in Emily Hawley Gillespie’s diary—written in 1858 on her
20th birthday—I knew I had found my “someone.” Emily’s diary
presented me with a powerful “I” to whom I could become audience and respond in
kind. To be sure we were really compatible, I did a sort of “test response,” a
short post which replied to her comments, both spoken and unspoken, and offered
a story of my own. When I had finished, I realized that even over the vast gulf
of time and space, Emily and I had found a common ground where one author’s
voice could respond to another’s.
We
were establishing a friendship.
For
the next year or so, my conversation with Emily will span a 30 year period of
her life—from her first entry at age 20 to her last just thirty years later.
Emily and I will share stories of first love, marriage and children, disappointments
and growing older. Although she died before reaching my current age, I know
there is much we will share and learn from each other. Emily was a witness to
history—as am I. And she both discovered and
created her identity within the pages of her diary. This is a journey I look
forward to making right alongside her.
And
when it's complete, it’s a journey I hope to share with a larger world—just as
she did. Our conversation will grow into what I hope to be my MA thesis/project—a
book that will document our joint expedition.
Would
you like to come along?
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